Steady as she goes..

Hi lovely friends. I have no good reasons why i haven't posted in so long. no good reason at all. i've had much going on in my life, but so have you both, too. i've said this before but i wish i could just tape my thoughts and they would be dictated into a journal. i want to write them. and i like keeping a journal. but i just don't. i seriously think i have an attention span disorder. i've coped well all these years but it's there.

Well here i am - months and months after writing a post called "Fluidity" which spoke of Dave and I possibly moving to CT and the time has come. At least I should say, the time has come if we can figure out a way out of this condo. It won't be pretty but it's necessary.

Even though I have no idea how we can extricate ourselves from the hundreds of papers we signed saying we would pay the whole entire amount back, so help me God... I can feel that we are in flux. It can be felt and sensed when inside our first little abode, what we would affectionately call our cube, cement block or cave, depending on the day.

For months, even longer, I've been really wanting to simplify. Get down to the basics. Live minimally. Make room for things that matter instead of getting bogged down by clutter. I have physically started to do so. We have sold our dining room table, the little brown couch, gave away the brown chair a long time ago, got rid of the old red couch and bought one good quality comfortable couch. we're selling anything that we don't really like or use anymore. and anytime i feel myself get attached to something I try to remind myself it's just an object. it served me well but now it's time to move on.

i also splurged in some essential oils. as in $186 worth. mind you, this was before we found out that dave's job was ending. ruth - did you know that? dave will no longer be employed as of dec 20. 2nd lay off in 9 months. so you see, all things are pointing toward simplifying. i've been wanting to anyway and here now is a SECOND pretty big life changing event occurring in our lives. as if the universe is saying to us...you are on the right track, now act on it. do it. what are you waiting for. so the oils...they represent taking another small step into turning to things a bit more pure and healing all the while. (of course i've yet to take advantage of these, but they're there, in my closet. patiently waiting for me.)

we meet with a lawyer tuesday and then with our financial analyst thursday. then i get my hair cut thur night (i just threw that fact in- no big importance, really). then once we figure out our options are and all the consequences, we will make a decision. i could be here for a another 6 mo or only through January. the best is yet to come, right.