Something's Happening to me Here....

I love and adore you both so much more than words on a blog could say.
I feel a bittersweetness when I look at the photos of the JOY dinner and the growing belly and the new haircut. I am grateful for this technology that allows me to see your faces online...but will never take the place of running my fingers through the new softness of Linda's hair and placing my own head on your tummy to hear the goings on in there.
I would have given anything to have been another moved heart and proud face sitting around the JOY dinner table and listening to you speak of your dreams and intentions to help heal the world.
But still I am grateful for my opportunity here...my growing French vocabulary and the vast amounts of time spent learning more about ego, pain body and my relationship to the present moment.
Last week, we were at the Lavo-matic doing laundry and I caught my reflection in a full length mirror.
It was one of the few times I've seen myself in full length over the course of 9 months.
I look in the mirror each day while washing my face and such but I've not seen my entire body like that but 2 or 3 times. It was strange. I don't even know what to say about it except that
Something is happening to me here through my invisibility.
By invisible, I mean the infrequency with which I actually see my entire self in the mirror...and how infrequently others really see me or know me....like my dear friends at home who SEE me.
Something is happening to me here - possibly I'm changing more than I can even detect and I'm hoping it will be okay.
I love you both and will be happy to see you both again through the eyeball and be seen too.


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