See it here? In my eyes? I really really miss you too.

I suppose we should have a talk ladies, right?
We 3 have learned to choose our realities and make them happen. I learned how to do this from the 2 of you. Because you're brilliant at manifesting stuff. Brilliant.
Donc, alors, SO....If we really want to be in the close vicinity of one another in our futures, we should start working on the manifestation now, right?

My heart is full when I think of margaritas with the 2 of you. And like MJ says, it, my heart, breaks at the same time. It hurts me down in places I didn't know could hurt that I'm not there to celebrate the house buying and to feel the bun growing in Linda's hot little oven : ) It really aches so much.
I feel that I may not make another year here, where I am happy to be...so happy to be. But I worry that I am making mistakes....that we will not be together. I need you both. I need to know that you love me. I need to know that it's okay...that what I do is good....I need you for that...I need to be on the porch...I need to make the soup...I need to help strip the wallpaper...I need to make tea and kiss Max's cheeks...I need that....

What do we want? How can we manifest our time together?
What would you envision for us.
Is has to be more than a week long visit each year.
We seem to be heading to different places eventually.

Mati and I are going back to Long Beach to live with Myriam and Kerry for 2 years before we head north. (I can't even imagine that it could be true....is it true that we'll there with you? oh please say its true...)
Then, we'll be in 3 different places.
but we must spend the summer months together....we must plan for our futures....together...
Please. I do need your love.

I just downed the cyber tequila shot and am waiting for my next margarita please...
and
thank you from the bottom of my heart for making my wedding come alive and thank you for the love.
I'm lucky to have you.
Ruth

PS. That little activist who never said anything at the board meetings in my head? She's determined to be heard now....don't ask me why...I just go where I'm led
: )
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