choice

I am more accustomed to living unconsciously and living in the present is very difficult for me.

I spend the minutes of my day in one space or the other but mostly I am spending many of these minutes unconscious.

I must make a conscious present choice to be presently conscious.

What is wrong that will not allow me to make this choice?

This is the time to bring it inside, it's the part of me that I have yet to develop.

Can I move back to making some choices that are simply a little bit better? What can I do to be a little bit better today?

I only have to put out a little effort to move JOY forward.

It's not about why I cannot, the choice is about HOW I can do a tiny bit better.

Every moment is an opportunity to choose to be conscious or unconscious.

I am lazy- at building new muscles
I am undisciplined-at building new choices

How much more terrified or anxious can I be? I live with it every day anyway...

therapy-10/6/08